If Only

Planned it

Made out like a bandit

A creature of habit

Contort and control

Every role

Queue the crying

As she lay dying

Be seen to be trying

Or maybe they see you

As I see you now

Fight it

Dispel and deny it

Take quiet delight in

The look on the faces

Of all those who buy it

They’re wasting their time coz

The look in your eye is

The undoing of

All who would see you now

Fake it

You bought it you break it

Then try to reframe it

As everyone else

You tell me you need it

To live is to feed it

I nearly believe it

If not for how clearly

That I see you now

You get off and you get buy

Looking out for number one

Anyone fixing to fix you

All those if only’s are the most fun