On your list - Nia Nkuna
You only call when you're bored or lost
Guess I'm your comfort at zero cost
Say I've been busy like that explains
Why I'm always the one feeling pain
I knew the rules but still I stayed
Kept finding hope in your throwaways
I dressed up love, you dressed it down
Now I'm the silence you talk around
You like me better when I don't complain
When I laugh it off and take the blame
But I'm not built for half a heart
And I'm not yours when you fall apart
I was the last on your list
But first when you needed it
You kept me close for the fallback
Left me cold in the flashback
Now I don't wait for your shift
I'm not a break or a twist
You want me now, too late for this
I was the last on your list
I made excuses for all your shade
Told myself you were just afraid
But truth is you like the chase
Just not the girl behind the face
Now I'm not crying at your ghost
I'm leveling up while you coast
You'll scroll through pictures late at night
Realize I was always right
You like me quiet like a trend
Just loud enough to flex again
But I need love that's not in shifts
So here's goodbye, sealed with a hit
I was the last on your list
But first when you needed it
You kept me close for the fallback
Left me cold in the flashback
Now I don't wait for your shift
I'm not a break or a twist
You want me now, too late for this
I was the last on your list
I found peace in my own name
You're the lesson, not the flame
I wear the pain like glitter now
You missed your chance, don't turn around
I was the last on your list
But now I'm first on my own
Wish you kept me close like a secret
Used my love, couldn't keep it
Now I don't bend, I don't drift
I'm not a maybe you can fix
You want me now, too bad you missed
I was the last on your list
