Not My God

Not My God - Sister MacHine Gun

I could have died for you, once maybe that was true

But now I've fallen to the depths of despair

I don't know why you couldn't see what you wanted me to be

But now it seems that you were being that unfair

You tied this rope around my neck

Then hung me out for all to see

I didn't know anything

You took advantage of me

I'm not expecting you to apologize

In fact, I'd give anything to hear more lies

You're not my god - but I will follow you

You're not my god - but I'll do anything for you

You're not my god - but I'll find out what I do believe

You're not my god, you're not my god

I feel so ashamed that I let you have your way

And didn't fight for what was mine all along

You always told me that nothing was guaranteed

That doesn't make it any easier to be strong

You taught me everything I know

Then left me out in the rain

I've hurt for so long

There's nothing left of my pain

I hate myself to sleep at night

I just don't care anymore what's wrong or right

Body grinder, soul finder

Sometimes I need a little reminder

Put me on the straight and narrow

Now that I'm more like an arrow

Shoot your heart out, steal your mind

I don't care about what I'll find

Time to figure out what I need

So when you cut me I don't bleed

Smash a window, cut my fist

Poke my eyes out, slit my wrist

Listen when I scream for you

Then you tell me what to do

Walk all over me, I don't care

Burn my body, ?

I come up, but I won't see

Why the f**k you're killing me