Birthmark Of Time

happy Birthday To Me

Another year, another scar

But the mirror still won’t lie

This day was meant to celebrate

But all I feel is the weight of time

Candles burn, but I feel colder

Another number, I’m just older

Photos fade, smiles lie

Still I’m haunted by the reasons why

They cheer and sing, but they don’t see

This hollow frame that once was me

I count the years, I trace the lines

Every wrinkle is a birthmark of time

Tell me

Why does growing feel like bleeding?

Why does silence sound like screaming?

Each year a mask, I try to wear

But underneath no one is there!

Blow the candles, wish it ends

All these ghosts, my only friends

Another day, the same disguise

Smiling face, with empty eyes

I carry years like loaded guns

Counting pain instead of suns

You can’t erase what's marked inside

This Birthmark of Time

Don’t say it’s just a day to smile

Don’t pretend it’s worth the while

Each “Happy Birthday” feels like a lie

When I wake just wanting to die

The cake is sweet, but truth is bitter

The mirror cracks, the lines grow thicker

I’m aging in a cage of doubt

Will I ever figure it out?

Yeah

Happy? You call this happy?

Every tick of the clock just traps me

I’m growing up in pieces, not whole

Year by year, I’m losing control

Wish I could pause, breathe, or rewind

Escape this spiral in my mind

But the date keeps coming, like a curse

And every verse just makes it worse

I don’t want gifts, I want peace

Don’t say my name, just let me sleep

This day ain’t gold it’s just a knife

That cuts another line in my life

This isn’t joy this is war

This is pain I can’t ignore

Another year, another chain

Another dose of quiet pain!

Blow the candles, wish it ends

All these ghosts, my only friends

Another day, the same disguise

Smiling face, with empty eyes

I carry years like loaded guns

Counting pain instead of suns

You can’t erase what's marked inside

This Birthmark of Time

Happy birthday to the version of me

That never made it to who I’m supposed to be