Subconcious (Explicit)

My life on roller coasters, it's going up and down

In a school of hard knocks, we ain't got no caps and gowns

Perfect with these lines, my lyrics overbound

I'm swimming through this bullshit, I'm just trying not to drown

I hope it never happens

I be waking up in cold sweats

Twitching from having dreams of coroner's, stole murder scenes

Got killed when he was 16

My life is inception, I'm living a bad dream

All these voices in my head, I don't know what the **** they mean

I'm fighting, I'm saying, this battle's so difficult

I'm far from being a typical nigga that practice rituals

Trying to use big words to make my **** sound critical

Emotional roller coasters, I'ma make my problems visible

Niggas hating all the time, something that a *****'ll do

So when it's time to board the plane, I make sure not to sit with you

****ing up a nigga vibe, you so pitiful

Sad ass individual, no wonder you ain't finished school

Things of the ****ing past remain undug up

All them skeletons in my closet from them souls that I done ****ed up

No, no, no, my problem tough luck

Living with no regret

Lose myself whenever I dream

I ain't gon' sleep yet, no day

Hell and hot water don't mix, take a pick

When it's love, take it slow, when it's vengeance, make it quick

Wavy gutter nigga, did I stutter nigga

There's a difference between staying down and staying up under niggas

I know, I know, I been on this grind for so long

Slowly my grip slipping, I'm trying to hold on

The pain leaves a stain, it's impossible to clean

This game is a maze, it's an obstacle to leave

Just buried my last grandparent, it was so hard to see it through

I'm feeling transparent, no wonder I ain't no good

I had some bad parents

I'm trying to get stupid paid, rich and incoherent

Suits me well, it fits, I wear it

Feds trying to fry me, got me sizzling in the skillet

I'm attracted to static, I'm addicted to friction

Choose my words carefully, cause I mean what I say

Living in a nightmare, but I dream once a day

Amen

Losing myself in dreams of you

Never forgetting that you want me too

We won't get off until this crazy ride is over

I hope it never ends