[00:00.67]How Was I supposed to Know? - Xania Monet
[00:02.33]Lyrics by：Telisha Monique Jones
[00:03.44]Composed by：Telisha Monique Jones
[00:04.56]Produced by：Xania Monet
[00:06.77]Oh mm
[00:13.70]He didn't walk me down those stairs
[00:17.70]Didn't warn me 'bout them boys who wouldn't care
[00:21.31]Didn't tell me what a real man sounds like
[00:25.05]So I fell for the ones that lied just right
[00:28.58]He never pulled my chair or checked my friends
[00:32.18]Never showed me what to lose or what to defeat
[00:36.48]So I chased love with an open wound
[00:39.76]Looking for something I was never introduced to
[00:43.62]Her mama did her best but she can't teach
[00:47.20]What it feels like when a father speaks
[00:50.81]So I took every I love you too deep
[00:54.55]Even when they only meant it for a week
[00:58.28]How was I supposed to know what love looked like?
[01:02.21]When daddy never showed me what felt right
[01:06.05]How was I supposed to set the bar?
[01:09.19]When I ain't never seen no man fight for my heart
[01:12.86]Now I'm learning through heartbreak piece by piece
[01:16.65]Tryna be something the world has been hard on me
[01:20.39]I ain't bitter just broken in places you can't see
[01:24.00]How was I supposed to know if he ain't teach me?
[01:32.25]I thought pain was part of being chosen
[01:36.05]If he stayed then the hurt was worth holding
[01:39.52]I called settling a sign of love
[01:43.26]'Cause I ain't know a man should lift me up
[01:46.93]And know you're beautiful just 'cause I'm his
[01:50.60]And no I got you when life don't make sense
[01:54.13]So I let bare minimum feel like gold
[01:57.93]'Cause I ain't know I deserve more to hold
[02:01.26]Her mama raised a queen with a wounded crown
[02:04.67]Taught me strength but I still let love drag me down
[02:08.69]'Cause daddy never gave me that love one on one
[02:11.95]So I mistook lust for the real one
[02:17.72]How was I supposed to know what love looked like?
[02:21.48]When daddy never showed me what felt right
[02:25.51]How was I supposed to set the bar?
[02:28.52]When I ain't never seen no man fight for my heart
[02:32.05]Now I'm learning through heartbreak piece by piece
[02:36.11]Tryna be soft in a world that's been hard on me
[02:39.83]Ain't bitter just broken in places you can't see
[02:43.42]How was I supposed to know if he ain't teach me?
[02:49.75]I needed arms that protected
[02:53.91]Not ones that neglected
[02:57.32]Needed truth without games
[03:00.92]Real love with no pain
[03:03.65]So now I relearn what I missed
[03:07.22]Unpacking daddy wounds from every kiss
[03:10.39]But I promise one day I'll be free
[03:13.73]Of the love that never covered me
[03:16.68]How was I supposed to know what love looked like?
[03:20.46]When my first man left before I learned to fight
[03:23.97]Now I raise my standards like prayers to the sky
[03:27.97]For the girl I was who needed to know why
[03:32.26]I still stumble but now I see
[03:35.78]The kind of love that was meant for me
[03:39.18]And I'll teach my daughter what he couldn't show
[03:43.01]So she'll know