Josh A - Barely Hanging On
Feels like I'm barely hangin' on
Every day feels like it's way too long
Don't know how to right so many wrongs
It's like there's no place where I belong
I been so miserable man again all the above
Don't wanna get close 'cause I'll end up crushed
I'll make some progress and take a few steps
But one thing goes wrong and I'm back where I was
Four years sober one death 'bout to push me over
I try to be strong for the ones that depend on me
But all this grievin' been pullin' me lower
I'm mad and I'm stressed
I don't want none of these thoughts in my head
I'm barely sleepin' man I been a wreck
Thinking on things that I shoulda said
'Cause that wasn't you in that hospital bed
Never got to say goodbye
I just sit alone with these tears in my eyes
I would trade everything I have
I would give it all away
If I could see you just one more time
Now I'm barely livin' can't go through the motions
Torn me apart right now I'm sittin' here broken
Can't even move I'm just stuck and I'm frozen
Mind always racin' I'm losin' my focus
How could I know that the last time I saw you
I didn't know I'd never see you again
And now I feel so lost without you It's so hard to live
Feels like I'm barely hangin' on now
I been losin' everything and nothing's really helpin' me
I hate the way this dwell on me
Feels like I been lost in insanity
And every single memory that's all I see
Feels like I'm barely hangin' on now
I been losin' everything and nothing's really helpin' me
I hate the way this dwell on me
Feels like I been lost in insanity
And every single memory that's all I see
Yeah you wonder where I been that's it
Down at the bottom and losin' my grip
Sometimes I don't even wanna live
Sometimes I don't want to exist but I have to
'Cause all the hurt that I feel
If I peace out now I just pass it on
Wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy so I just move along
Yeah I gotta be strong for the ones that I love
Hurts them too that's why I gotta be tough
Yeah I gotta be a man gotta put 'em all above
Gotta be a rock when times get tough but it's hard to breathe
You were my rock why you have to leave
I know God's plan how it had to be
But it's all been weighin' down on me
And I don't know if I got the strength
After what happened I won't be the same
I just can't take all this hurt and this pain
I wasn't ready for this kind of change
I'm lookin' around but there's no one to blame
Won't let your memory fade you left a void
No one's filling its place
I been so scared to visit your grave 'cause
Feels like I'm barely hangin' on now
I been losin' everything and nothing's really helpin' me
I hate the way this dwell on me
Feels like I been lost in insanity
And every single memory that's all I see
Feels like I'm barely hangin' on now
I been losin' everything and nothing's really helpin' me
I hate the way this dwell on me
Feels like I been lost in insanity
And every single memory that's all I see
