Don't Mind Me Venting

You know, I'm exhausted

Trying so hard but I just

Can't get rid of the voices

I'm trying not to force it

Despite the pain that I'm feeling

I'll respect the process

My movements are cautious

Even though I don't think

That I can maintain the focus

Yeah, I know I have come

This far and that I should be proud

But it still feels like I've lost it

But it still feels like I've lost it

But it still feels like I've lost it

Like I've lost it

People might think so

But I've never been this strong

Thought I could carry the weight

For the world, but I was wrong

So that lead to me blaming

On myself for so long

And maybe this anguish

Will follow my until I'm gone

Follow me until I'm gone

Until I'm gone

Until I'm gone

But

Could I stand still just for once

Find hope but seems like there's none

Like I'd be the the only

One whose the world has come undone

I know that this is too much

I have become my own judge

And there's no price too hight to pay

(For being who I am)

If I let go of this grudge

And say it out loud?

Would it be helpful

Or just make me feel way worse?

Could it grant me a chance

To start over once more?

Or would end up

Just giving me more open wounds?

I just can't hear you now

The screams are just too loud!

I just can't distinguish

My own voice no more

It seems that this bitter end

Is what it got the best of me

And I just can't deal with it alone!

Should I let go of this grudge

And say it out loud?

Would it be helpful

Or just make me feel way worse?

Could it grant me a chance

To start over once more?

Or would end up just giving

Me more open wounds?

I just can't hear you now

The screams are just too loud!

I just can't distinguish

My own voice no more

It seems that this bitter end

Is what it got the best of me

And I just can't deal with it alone!