The Weight I Dont Talk About - Wiz Keitown
I wake up early, same as always
Boots by the door, coffee gone cold
The mirror shows a man still standing
But it don't show the weight I hold
I shake hands and smile when I'm supposed to
Say I'm good like it's the truth
There's a heaviness in my chest these days
That don't show up in my boots
I've learned how to laugh through the silence
How to not win when the world don't ask
I carry stones behind my eyes
And wear calm like a well-worn mask
There are nights I sit in the dark too long
Let the quiet say what I can't
Some weights don't break your back at once
They just teach you how to stand
It's the weight I don't talk about
The kind you carry alone
A thousand words you never say
A heart that's learned to hold its own
I learned to walk with it, breathe it in
Let it settle deep inside
It's the weight I don't talk about
But it walks with me every mile
I've lost some things I can't replace
People, dreams, and younger days
Some left slow, some left all at once
Some just faded quietly away
There's a name I don't say out loud
Still echoes when the night gets long
There's a promise I made to myself that I still hold on to
Even when it's wrong
I've been the strong one in the room
The one who never breaks
The one they lean on when it's heavy
The one who don't complain, but strength can feel like a lonely place
When no one asks how you're doing too
So I shoulder it all, keep moving on like I've always learned to do
It's the weight I don't talk about
The kind you bury deep
The kind that keeps your eyes wide open
When the rest of the world's asleep
I don't need saving, don't need praise
Just a little room to breathe
It's the weight I don't talk about
And it's heavier than it seems
There's a road I drive when I need to think
No radio, just tires and time
I replay moments I can't fix
Every wrong turn, every crossed line
I've forgiven people who never asked
Carried guilt that wasn't mine
Some burdens get passed down quietly
Like a family trait you never declined
I've learned that silence can be loud
And loneliness don't always show
You can be surrounded and still feel lost
Still feel like you're carrying it solo
I don't drink too much, don't lose control
Don't make my pain a scene
I just wake up and do it again
Living somewhere in between
It's the weight I don't talk about
The kind that don't leave marks
The kind that follows you into light
And sits with you in the dark
I don't wear it on my sleeve
Don't let it change my name
It's the weight I don't talk about
But it's taught me how to stay
Some nights I wonder who I'd be
If I laid it all down
If I said the things I swallow whole
If I let myself break right now
But there's pride in carrying what you can
And honor in staying upright
Not every battle needs an audience
Some are fought in the quiet of night
I still believe in showing up
Even when the fire runs low
I still believe in doing right
Even when nobody knows
I've made peace with the man I am
Scars and all I've earned
Some lessons come with a heavy cost
And some weights can't be returned
So if you see me standing steady
Don't assume I've had it easy
Some of us learned how to carry more
Without ever sounding needy
I don't talk much about what hurts
I just carry it somehow
