How To Disappear

It's a slow ride, slipping out of focus

A steady decline, every day's the same

It aches until you tell yourself

You can't feel it anymore

But it makes your shadow heavy

As you drag it on the floor

And you're happy til you're not

Then you're unsure if you ever were

"You're looking tired lately

Is it getting hard to hold yourself together?"

The vespertine reluctance to stay awake

And engage with anything that you say

Are you keeping count of how often I dissociate

When asked"is everything okay?"

When all I wanna know is how to disappear

Without leaving you to worry about me

It hurts to say, but I'm getting tired

Of running away from the same pain

Sorry if I've been avoiding the question

Sorry if I've been avoiding the question

What if you woke up to an empty bed

And a note that said

"Is it disregard or discontent that lures the sparrow to its end?"

Sharp despair laid bare in the sunlight golden

Fractured glass on an afternoon of grief unspoken

Lately I haven't been myself at all

Sorry if I've been avoiding the question

I haven't been myself at all

Sorry if I've been avoiding the question

I haven't been myself at all

When all I wanna know is how to disappear

Without leaving you to worry about me

It hurts to say, but I'm getting tired

Of running away from the same pain.

"Is everything okay?"

(Is everything okay, everything okay?)

"Is everything okay?"

(Is everything okay, everything okay?)

"Is everything okay?"

(Is everything okay, everything okay?)

"Is everything okay?"

(Is everything okay, everything okay?)

Sorry if I've been avoiding the question

Sorry if I've been avoiding the question

When all I wanna know is how to disappear

It's all I wanna know

When all I wanna know is how to disappear

It's all I wanna know