Alone with My Thoughts (Explicit)

If I knew what I had to do to forget about you

I still probably wouldn’t

Cos you taught me to be and exist just for me

And for that I’m eternally grateful

If I had all the tools I need to go back and see

What life would be like without you

I think I would find myself living a lie

As a version of me I don’t like

Broke my heart but you’re the reason I could wear it on my sleeve in the first place

Glad you came cos it’s way too easy for me to sit alone with my thoughts

Oh until I met you, I had always assumed

My love was criminal

It condemned to life, it could not see the light

A part of me I had learned to hide

So I used to just run away, stay in bed for the day

Contemplating the covers

But now I have found that I’m still allowed

To show a face concealed in disarray

Broke my heart but you’re the reason I could wear it on my sleeve in the first place

Glad you came cos it’s way too easy for me to sit alone with my thoughts

I say I hate you, I wish I never met you

But we both know that’s not true

So maybe I should thank you

For building me up, and then knocking me down

For freeing my soul, then throwing it to the crowd

You’re one of a kind, you saved me from my mind

So **** you, but thank you

I can’t believe that I let you

Break my heart cos I trusted your word, yeah you were my world

So confused by the way that I feel, God is this even real

Broke my heart but you’re the reason I could wear it on my sleeve in the first place

Glad you came cos it’s way too easy for me to sit alone with my thoughts