[00:00.00]Clouds (Explicit) - Sik World
[00:04.16]Lyrics by：Jonathon Quiles
[00:08.32]Composed by：Jonathon Quiles
[00:12.49]Yeah
[00:13.30]I stare at the clouds when I'm feelin' down
[00:15.00]Reflecting on life and noticing how that
[00:16.92]During the silence all my thoughts get loud
[00:18.37]So I block 'em out wish you was around
[00:20.38]But I guess life has a way of removing
[00:21.94]The people who do not deserve you
[00:23.50]And it has a way of you feeling connected
[00:25.16]To all the same people that hurt you
[00:26.64]I'll be the first to say I made mistakes
[00:28.82]I know deep down that I am not perfect
[00:30.55]Lately I've been isolating myself and
[00:32.12]Diggin deep to rediscover my purpose
[00:33.88]They're just seein' me as an artist
[00:35.00]But they don't see the pain I bury underneath the surface
[00:37.11]I know what I feel inside I
[00:39.20]I just don't know how to word it
[00:40.67]We love what hurts us and hope they can change
[00:42.18]Until they hurt us then hurt us again
[00:43.88]Then we start to change and 'cause all this pain
[00:45.49]The cycle repeats and it doesn't break
[00:47.39]A product of trauma oh God what a shame
[00:48.96]How we hurt those who come along the way
[00:50.66]Leaving a trail of victims that complain
[00:52.41]How we're too damaged and can not be saved
[00:54.59]My life ain't where it's supposed to be
[00:57.78]I'm losin people close to me
[01:00.99]Didn't know cuts were supposed to bleed
[01:04.57]What a lie that was sold to me
[01:08.94]And I'm standing by myself
[01:13.58]Staring at the clouds
[01:16.63]I'm feeling hella down
[01:19.88]Yeah
[01:21.05]Hurt people hurt people I've been hurt plenty
[01:22.69]Hurt people hurt people and I've hurt many
[01:24.33]It does upset me knowing some resent me
[01:26.02]Life was unsteady hope they forgive me
[01:27.80]I can't keep spending my life with regret
[01:29.49]The way I was raised it ****** with my head
[01:31.26]That's why I find it so hard to connect
[01:32.80]Maybe that's why I left every ex
[01:34.49]I only dated women so I wouldn't feel lonely
[01:36.26]And ignore the fact that they had all their issues
[01:37.92]And I self sabotage our future instead of
[01:39.71]Acknowledging everything that I've been through
[01:41.56]No I forgive you I wasn't perfect
[01:43.45]'Cause you brought fame from a past
[01:44.75]Mine made me fearful yours made you hurtful
[01:46.90]And that's why we didn't last
[01:48.27]Some numb the feeling by takin' prescription
[01:49.74]But I numb the feelin' by just sittin' with them
[01:51.37]I'm wishin' that there was a way I could rid them
[01:53.34]'Cause this hitting hard like a two-car collision
[01:54.79]This isn't me venting or looking for sympathy
[01:56.54]This is me realising I need to commit to me
[01:58.27]'Cause if I don't I'ma keep livin' miserably
[02:00.08]The feelings I'm feelin are crippling and
[02:02.18]My life ain't where it's supposed to be
[02:05.36]I'm losin people close to me
[02:08.65]Didn't know cuts were supposed to bleed
[02:12.14]What a lie that was sold to me
[02:16.45]And I'm standing by myself
[02:21.16]Staring at the clouds
[02:24.23]I'm feeling hella down