[00:17.01]I knew it was bad
[00:18.47]when I had nowhere else I could go
[00:20.60]Hooked me up to a scanner
[00:22.62]just to tell me how I broke
[00:24.65]They opened up my heart
[00:26.32]to show you that they finally diagnosed me
[00:32.95]I'm one year out
[00:34.01]I'm way too focused
[00:34.87]but I just can't sleep
[00:36.04]I start to think about
[00:38.12]what all these drugs will do to me
[00:40.45]If I keep doing what they tell me to
[00:43.18]I fear I'm gonna lose a part of me
[00:49.11]Please just let me sleep
[00:50.53]I need
[00:51.19]I need
[00:51.85]I need ketamine
[00:54.94]To take away
[00:56.20]All the pain in me
[00:58.99]I'm out of touch
[01:00.91]With my sanity
[01:01.93]That's what you did to me
[01:05.07]Now I need ketamine
[01:06.85]One small dose now I'm numb all over
[01:10.39]It's the price I pay as the edge gets closer
[01:14.50]I'm out of touch
[01:16.52]With my sanity
[01:18.19]Hate my reality
[01:19.71]I need ketamine
[01:23.56]You held me up
[01:24.98]But you let me down
[01:27.51]Six years was just way too long for us
[01:30.65]But now I'm stuck
[01:33.24]No discretion
[01:35.42]You made it so hard to f*cking feel
[01:38.82]I'm one year out,
[01:40.23]I'm way too focused
[01:41.24]but I just can't sleep
[01:42.56]I start to think about
[01:44.18]what all these drugs will do to me
[01:46.41]If I keep doing what they tell me to
[01:49.24]I fear I'm gonna lose a part of me
[01:54.66]Please just let me sleep
[01:56.43]I need
[01:57.39]I need
[01:58.55]I need ketamine
[02:00.53]To take away
[02:02.56]All the pain in me
[02:04.49]I'm out of touch
[02:06.21]With my sanity
[02:07.73]That's what you did to me
[02:10.62]Now I need ketamine
[02:11.73]One small dose now I'm numb all over
[02:16.03]It's the price I pay as the edge gets closer
[02:20.39]I'm out of touch
[02:22.36]With my sanity
[02:24.69]Hate my reality
[02:25.60]I need ketamine
[02:29.30]Oh please don't wake me up
[02:33.60]I need ketamine
[02:34.20]I need ketamine
[02:37.20]Oh please don't wake me up
[02:40.90]One small dose now I'm numb all over
[02:44.60]I need
[02:45.51]I need
[02:46.62]I need ketamine