Free Will and Testament

Given free will but within certain limitations

I cannot will myself to limitless mutations

I cannot know what I would be if I were not me

I can only guess me.

So when I say that I know me how can I know that

What kind of spider understands arachnophobia

I have my senses and my sense of having senses.

Do I guide them Or they me

The weight of dust exceeds the weight of settled objects.

What can it mean such gravity without a centre

Is there freedom to un-be

Is there freedom from will-to-be

Sheer momentum makes us act this way or that way.

We just invent or just assume a motivation.

I would disperse be disconnected. Is this possible

What are soldiers without a foe

Be in the air but not be air be in the no air.

Be on the loose neither compacted nor suspended.

Neither born nor left to die.

Had I been free I could have chosen not to be me.

Demented forces push me madly round a treadmill.

Demented forces push me madly round a treadmill.

Let me off please I am so tired.

Let me off please I am so very tired.