Lately - Erikthemc
Composed by：Erik Ortiz
Lately it's been hard for me to smile
Try so hard but I'm in denial
All those names that I've been told
They're running through my head
Like I'm running miles
How long while this go on for
I don't know but I am sure it will be a while
It will be a while tell about the f**king flex
I can't take this pain no more
Liquor bottles there ain't no more
All this stress theres plently more
All these people yea I gave them all
Where are they now
They come and go
I ask myself why do I try
I don't know
I don't know
Can't trust nobody these days
Promises they're all fake
Everybody is fake
Why so many d**n hate
I can't even trust my family
They try to me bring me down
I tell them I do it for them
Suddenly my dreams all drown
I drown myself in my tears yea
I drown myself in my fears yea
I glance here from the stairs
How everybody seems to live well
Though they might be just like me
Fighting demons just like me
Masking their pain with a smile just like me
See
I've been holding this in for way to long
Hear my words of distress
I've been tryna remain strong
But it's time to finally confess
What I feel inside so I wrote it down
So the world can hear my sound
Thats so profound
Before it's to late
And I'm not around
Lately it's been hard for me to smile
Try so hard but I'm in denial
All those names that I've been told
They're running through my head
Like I'm running miles
How long while this go on for
I don't know but I am sure it will be a while
It will be a while I say
Lately it's been hard for me to smile
Try so hard but I'm in denial
All those names that I've been told
They're running through my head
Like I'm running miles
How long while this go on for
I don't know but I am sure it will be a while
It will be a while
I wonder if love was not meant for me
'Cause everytime I try they break me
I give them my all they take advantage
I give them my heart
They give me fragments in return
And I return 'cause I just do not learn
It's hard to discern
Who will overturn and hurt you and hurt you
I think you about you everyday
Wondering if you are okay
Living my life day by day
Looking through my pictures and I see your face
Memories start flashing
Open up the numberpad and start dialying
Cancel the call 'cause I can't do this
And I'm back to where I started
See I tried and I tried
But you still weren't content
Gave you all I had but wanted me to conquest
More than the world for you
And if it weren't for you
I would've never realized the lies you told me
To blinded with this love
That diguised it from me
Everyone told me that your love wasn't real
I ignored their appeal
And continued to fall for you
'Cause I knew inside you felt something for me
No matter what people told me
They tried to show me
I tried to show them
The angel that you were for me
You were forming a person in me
That I never knew that I could be
But now that you're gone
I honestly dont know what's left of me
Lately it's been hard for me to smile
Try so hard but I'm in denial
All those names that I've been told
They're running through my head
Like I'm running miles
How long while this go on for
I don't know but I am sure it will be a while
It will be a while I say
Lately it's been hard for me to smile
Try so hard but I'm in denial
All those names that I've been told
They're running through my head
Like I'm running miles
How long while this go on for
I don't know but I am sure it will be a while
It will be a while
I cry myself to sleep
It seems that all these dreams
Are just some fantasy
To all my family
I told myself that one day
I'd try make a change
Like martin luther king
He's still remembered to this day
I was barely 13
When I decided to start rapping
I told a few people
They just started laughing
My friends started to fade away
Now I'm alone and on my way
Still tryna find my purpose
Music helps me cope with the pain
Life hasn't been same
Ever since I moved to a different state
But here is where I picked up the mic
And began my journey
Experienced the fast life
Surrounded by people
Who wanna live the same life
In the studio all day and all night
Hoping our voice gets heard
But it's hard with all this new music
Which is now preferred it so absurd
Do you live the same s**t thats all slurred
On the verge of quitting
But J Cole taught me to never omit
And stay commited
So here I am sitting
In this room alone thinking
Of ways to possibly
Finally make a difference
