Medicine - Damon Price
Lyrics by：Damon Price
Composed by：Damon Price
Produced by：Viviane Reid/Ryan Anderson
I didn't drink to feel alive
I drank to feel less
I didn't chase a high
I chased some quiet in my chest
I didn't wake up lookin' for trouble
Didn't wanna lose control
I just wanted one damn hour
Where my head would let me go
They see bottles
They see pills
They don't see
What they kill
It wasn't for fun
It wasn't for show
I wasn't tryin' to run my life into a hole
It was medicine
Or so I thought
Just somethin' to slow down
What my mind won't stop
It wasn't a party
It was survival
I was tryin' to stay here
Just a little while
I learned early how to swallow pain
Smile through the burn
Be the calm one in the chaos
Be the last to get concerned
They say"why don't you just stop?"
Like it's that simple man
Like I wasn't holdin' myself together
With whatever I had
I didn't want numb
I wanted peace
But peace never came
Easy to me
It wasn't for fun
It wasn't for show
I wasn't tryin' to run my life into a hole
It was medicine
Or so I thought
Just somethin' to slow down
What my mind won't stop
It wasn't a party
It was survival
I was tryin' to stay here
Just a little while
If you never needed somethin'
Just to make it through the night
Then don't tell me what I should've done
To save my life
I know it almost took me
I know it crossed the line
But I'm still here
And that counts
Tonight
It wasn't for fun
It wasn't for fame
It was a grown man
Tryin' not to go insane
It was medicine
Turned into chains
But I'm learnin' new ways
To take the pain
It wasn't a party
It was survival
I was tryin' to stay here
Just a little while
I didn't know how to heal
So I treated the hurt
