There’s a letter
In my drawer
With your name
I don’t say anymore
I wrote it on a Sunday
When the rain was coming down
Every word felt heavy
Every line made no sound
I tried to say I missed you
But the sentence felt too late
So I folded all my feelings
And I left them with your name
The room was getting colder
The coffee lost its steam
I kept looking at the doorway
Like you’d walk back through a dream
I wanted to be honest
I wanted to be brave
But some apologies
Arrive after the wave
I found your old message
When I cleaned my phone last night
You said you’d always know me
Even in a different life
I smiled for half a second
Then I put the screen away
Some memories are gentle
But they still know how to stay
I don’t know if I’m angry
I don’t know if I’m fine
I only know the silence
Still remembers your voice and mine
You never sent the letter
But I think I felt it too
There were things I never answered
There were things I never knew
Maybe we were careful
Maybe we were scared
Maybe love was waiting
But we weren’t prepared
If the words had found us
Before we let go
Would we still be strangers
Walking different roads?
Letter I never sent
Heart I never showed
All the quiet things
Only lonely people know
Letter I never sent
Still inside my chest
I was trying to leave
But I never left
If I could say it now
Would it make a difference then?
You were the goodbye
I never learned to end
I still remember winter
And the scarf around your face
How the whole world disappeared
In that small familiar place
I was bad at staying
You were tired of waiting
We were both pretending
Love was not fading
I should have called you sooner
I should have held the line
I should have said the truth
Before we ran out of time
But pride is such a quiet thing
It sits behind the tongue
And by the time I noticed
We were already done
I don’t need your sorrow
I don’t need you to explain
I have made a little shelter
Out of all that pain
But sometimes in the evening
When the whole room turns blue
I wonder if the softer me
Still belongs to you
I never wrote an answer
I never found the nerve
Maybe I was protecting
The heart you used to hurt
But if your letter reached me
On some ordinary day
I might read it once in silence
Then keep it anyway
Maybe we were careful
Maybe we were scared
Maybe love was waiting
But we weren’t prepared
If the words had found us
Before we let go
Would we still be strangers
Walking different roads?
Letter I never sent
Heart I never showed
All the quiet things
Only lonely people know
Letter I never sent
Still inside my chest
I was trying to leave
But I never left
If I could say it now
Would it make a difference then?
You were the goodbye
I never learned to end
I forgive the silence
I forgive the fall
I forgive the version
Of us that lost it all
I forgive the timing
I forgive the pain
But I still keep your memory
Like a candle in the rain
Letter I never sent
Heart I never showed
All the quiet things
Only lonely people know
Letter I never sent
Still inside my chest
I was trying to leave
But I never left
If I could say it now
Would it make a difference then?
You were the goodbye
I never learned to end
There’s a letter
In my drawer
With your name
I don’t say anymore
