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作词：lilT1mmy
作曲：lilT1mmy, SamHU
Hate you but i love you got me feeling so confused
All these feelings scrambled im tired of being used
Every time you hurt me i just bled until i bruised
You left me by myself with nothing else to lose
Reminiscing bout the future and im thinking bout the past
For every single friend i lost I wish it was the last
Life is never fair it goes by way to fast
Bullet to the heart cant heal it with a cast
Im back in that obsession
Possession of aggression
Every day youre not here im still waiting for confession
Took a life and got away without any questions
murder for no reason taught a valuable lesson
I need some closure cuz Im tired of being hurt
*** to ease the pain smoking ** and poppin perks
Stolen from this world ** you didnt deserve
I swear you threw me in the ground and left me in the dirt
Every single day I always put a mask on
Praying that it sticks but it never lasts long
Bottle all my feelins then I smoke it glass bong
Mumma in jail I havent made a bad song
Its harder when you livin
People aint forgivin
Its gonna be hard for you
Because youre different but its ok
Im gonna be at the top Ill take the long way
But I earned it and then I learned from it
I walked through hell and I got burnt from it
All the scars just prove that I deserve this **
And its crazy
Its been a hell of a ride
Im never finna drop until The day that I die
I always have that rush that feeling inside
I put a ring on the game so we good
Its a long time before I go so we good
age of 13 and Im dreaming for the top
remember late nights with my bros we was walking down the block
homie died young had his name written in the chalk
oops ran in his house and they didnt even knock
she got the key to my heart but she aint gon unlock
death all in my ear put me in a headlock
we was in a high speed chase had it in a roadblock
inspired by both MJs ball is life and moonwalk
saw my homies die put me in a aftershock
always thought love was real but that ** was photoshop
My mum always told me dont trust these fake friends
They will always stab you in the back
And thats when they attack
Yeh as you get older you realise
Who actually is in disguise
People always used to doubt me
But now look where I be
Jus try a buy mum some property
Im tryna put my town on the map
Thats why Ive been doing all this rap
Smoking this loud
But still trying to make my family proud
Lately all Ive been feeling is pain
With my teardrops falling like the rain
Right about now Im losing my mind
I just need some time to rewind
Everyday the same
With all these demons in my brain
I dont know why I feel so alone
And my home doesnt feel like a home
All I feel is pain
Am I going insane
The devils dragging me along
A frozen heart of stone
I will never belong
I lost hope Im so alone
I fear god my heart needs sown
One last time through the pain
Look in the mirror hear the rain
Its so cold I feel hate
Im just here to tell you my story
No one knows the things I been thru
No one know bout the life I live
Stress on my chest so I take a hit
Relaxing now jus a little bit
Now that Im feeling a high
I can now feel like me
If only I could go fly
Then I would really be free
Too far gone nothing to discuss
Im giving up give no fuss
Living this hell I dont felt the flames and god ** do it burn
But I guess its a hard lesson learnt
Only when you feel the hurt
20/20 vision but my entire life been nuffin but a blur
And this my story so ** a hook
This aint just another song
This an inside look
