These Days

I don’t like the people I’m surrounded by

Are they insufferable or am I just an asshole?

Convince myself that if I’m not careful I’ll spiral again

Everyone that loves me , they just leave

And everyone that stays , they just take what they need

Til there’s nothing left and I’m on my knees

In disbelief

I kinda like taking the long way home cause I just know to prepare for the hurting

My therapist says I should just stop showing up

Everyone that loves me , they just leave

And everyone that stays , they just take what they need

Til there’s nothing left and I’m on my knees

In disbelief

Was it all a dream? Everything I’ve ever known?

You know that I can't trust myself these days

I kinda wish that you saw the aftermath

The panic attacks on the floor of my shower

The price I pay for not compromising who I am

Everyone that loves me , they just leave

And everyone that stays , they just take what they need

Til there’s nothing left and I’m on my knees

In disbelief

Was it all a dream? Everything I’ve ever known?

You know that I can't trust myself these days