While I Was Dying

I came alive while I was dying

The agony of the shedding skin

And it was hard and in rigid denying

I tried to hold onto the past within

My skin has stretched over years of wanting

Rivulets formed in creased flesh

My hands emerged from the bloat of destroying

My muscles broke from their cage of sloth

And now I run with my legs beneath me

My hips heavy with the years of fear

My salvation, the tears that relinquish

And I thank my God that I’m still here

I’m thankful to you, you showed me courage

In death’s throes you were hard to find

And though we did not have the love I wanted

Each passing day slips us more entwined

I am not done, I am not done wanting

I am filled with the bloom of peace

No passive flare, this is fire igniting

To lead me forward to the light