Letter to You (Explicit)

Got no clue what God's plan

Is but I'm still searching

Really hurting

My love for you been lurking

Stalking my every move

Running through my mind

Like you got track shoes

Grateful for the time

That we can still spend

I been hoping that its leading us

To different ends

Than where we once was

Fearful coz I'm not really sure

When it's going to end

So even through

The pain I still pretend

I pretend it's cool to hear

About them other guys

And for a second I'm hoping

That you see through those lies

But then I still suppress it

Keep me from shooting my shot

I hope you get mah message

After we linked it

Caused a chain reaction

Did everything we used

To do and did it all with passion

Breathing life right back

Into what we once had

Succumbing to this love

Never been bad

I understand that we said

We should start with friendship

I understand that we said

We should start with Investing effort

I understand but ain't no where

That I can I stand and say I'm over you

Wasn't over you then how could I be now

I'm really sorry that I held back

Maybe if I didnt then you'd still be here

I was driven by fear

Thought if I spoke

I push you elsewhere

Should have made

My love for you real clear

Your Causes of departure

Really unclear

Now Talking fom a point

I never thought I'd be speaking from

I hope you understand

Where I'm coming from

I'm hurt and I'm angry

All this acting should

Have won me a Oscar

An understatement if

I said that I be missing you badly

They say losses are just

Lessons coz an L subjective

You Did your best to not

Deviate

From a set objective

But the world kept on ****ing w

Ith your effort invested

So this are two Big L's

Lost a real one

And I learnt more than alot

Thought I knew love until

I met you I stand corrected

Can't shake the fact

That im feeling

Like all this shiit unfair

You and I the perfect pair

Wishing the test we got

Wasnt just a scare

Kids we spoke about

All the names that we done

Brought about,our baby

Would've kept you here

Sparkling eyes kak stout

With soft and bushy hair

Our little bossiekop

I Miss you gang

But this ain't pyru

Wish you were still here

So I'd say I do