I Loved You

I loved you

We both know knew

I hope you still know

After all

These long years

And painful growth

Now so much has changed

Though the years pass like days

Twenty nine felt like nineteen

Lost to the decade in between

We grow up faster and slower

In the fight to find closure

We make less of ourselves

And more of ourselves

Some parts too loud some

Parts we quiet down

If I just, if I just

If I only could just

Then maybe, just maybe

That would just be enough

But it's never enough

Never quite right

And if it ever was enough

They'd change

The goal in plain sight

Because you'll

Never measure up

To that made up ideal

And if you could you never

Would because

That's not you and not real

So it's useless to compare

Or wish for new skin

It's it what it is

What has been

Has already been

Never perfect

It was worth

I believe in my bones

Love is foolish

Love is stupid

And we were both

Though our seasons change

There's a thread that still remains

Sometimes I sit down

And I can't believe we made it

With tears in my eyes look

On how we stayed the distance

There are times when the past

Feels like it weighs so heavy

And times when it feels

Like it's that weight

That holds us steady

Some roads are longer

Than we know

And we're asked

To travel further

Than we think we'd ever go

With each step, each stride

With each tear cried

We find inside a strength

To give us pride