If I Made It Easy (Explicit)

Every time I bleed

I lose ability to heal

Maybe I received all

Of the pain incessantly

I'm used, every part of me

I'm bruised and I cannot breathe

No one is my company

I watched everybody leave

If I showed you all of my scars

Then would you like my honesty?

Would you go through all of my shards

When I break down entirely?

I always pray to be with you eternally

But you'll only stay with me

If I made it easy

I always pray (I always pray)

To be the best that I can be

(That I can be)

'Cause you'll only stay (only stay)

With me if I made it easy

(If I made it easy)

When I was twenty

Someone played with my heart (oh)

That was the day

I chose to play in the dark

(Play in the dark)

And now I'm thirty

I be ****in' so hard

The biggest misstep

That I did was that I took it too far

'Cause I only hate them until

They become all of my men (ooh)

I only hate them until

I become a part of them (yeah)

I can't believe I am as greedy

As he was to her

I freely do men massacre

They feed me till the crash occurs

I'm their little history

Then they will get rid of me

(Will get rid of me)

No one is my company

I watched everybody leave

If I showed you all of my scars

Then would you like my honesty?

(Oh, would you like it?)

Would you go through all of my

(Oh) shards when I break down entirely?

I always pray (I always pray)

To be with you eternally

But you'll only stay

With me if I made it easy

Oh, if I made it easy

(If I made it easy)

Woah, woah, if I made it easy

I always pray (I always pray)

To be the best that I can be

'Cause you'll only (oh)

Stay with me if I made it easy

If I made it easy

If I made it easy

Ooh ohh, no, oh, no

I always pray

To be the best that I can be

'Cause you'll only stay

With me if I made it easy

Can I play something? yeah, okay

So, you wanna play with me?

Ha, I wanna play with you too

But you know, I gotta

See something first, yeah

I wanna know if it's

Big enough for me, yeah

So, can you show it?

Yeah, I wanna see, ahh

What the fu-

Hey, hey, no, yeah

No, hey, yeah, ohh, ooh

Yo, I'm on my twink era

My asshole pink era

I got five men wantin' me back

In their *NSYNC era

**** like I blink era

So don't you interrupt

I got five men breakin' my back, yeah

That's my kink, be rough

Don't blame me if I do

This **** all over again

A pretty boy like me is set

To **** with every men (ah)

Oh you wanna be friends?

Boy, I know you reachin'

You just wanna have a taste

Then next day you'll be leavin'

'Cause I've seen it all

Ain't no way that you'd be different

You're predictable

If you can use me, I'll use you too

I might as well be involved

Nickname's Lucy, and I hope you

Knew I sold my ****ing soul

Give me the ****ing gold

I got the body, I got the mind

I get the money after I grind

You ain't my honey

You're never mine

But you should love me

Or else you'll die

I know I'm cocky, I got the nerve

If I'm being naughty, **** harder

The world is always

****in' against me, *****

I'm the main character

So, **** you if you

Think you're pretty

I'm the only one who's pretty

Dominant ones come with me

You know why the hell I'm picky

Every day I gotta bounce

On everything biggie

I'm notorious, I ain't DD

Do ménage's like I'm Nicki

I will never do a quickie

Ride again after you breed me

*****, if you like me

You can suck my ass

*****, if you hate me

You should suck my ass

Roll your ****in' eyes

If I give you that deepthroat

Buy a ****in' ice

If you give me that c-note

I hope you realize

You're playing with a demon

What you heard about me

Boy, it's prolly true

Who the **** ever

Cares if I'm masc or effem?

I abuse power, get bars like FM

Still finna hear me serve bars in your FM

'Cause you never met a gay boy

Who can kill you, ah (ah)

How would you know

That I breathe only for you, baby?

When I allowed you to go, boy

I feel that I have betrayed me

And now, I'm alone

I hope you're near

I swear that I will change me

Without you, I know

I'm never home

I'm sorry that I couldn't give peace

When you're around me

But I won't cross the line even

If they are talking loudly

I'll only make it right

I can't live seeing you without me

You're always my life

You are my home

('cause I never grew up)

How would you know

That I breathe only for you, baby?

(Only for you) ('cause I never grew up)

When I allowed you to go, boy

I feel (oh) that I have betrayed me

('Cause I never grew up)

And now, I'm alone, I hope you're near

I swear that I will change me

('Cause I never grew up)

Without you, I know, I'm never home

(I'm never home)

('cause I never grew up)

I'm sorry

That I couldn't give peace

When you're around me

(When you're around me)

(Cause I never grew up)

But I won't cross the line even

If they are talking loudly (oh)

('cause I never grew up)

I'll only make it right

I can't live seeing

You without me (ah)

('cause I never grew up)

You're always my life

You are my home

But maybe I am just

Another crumbling pretty boy

I never knew my way

Drowning in my mistakes

Maybe I am just another

Crumbling city boy, ah

I'm just another ****ing city boy

Maybe I am just another

****ing pretty boy

****ing pretty people