Hugging My Grudge

I have weapons and battle plans

But in my heart I know

I can't ever protect you from

Things I don't understand.

And when I hold you in my arms

It scares me just to

Think that something so beautiful

Could just come apart in my hands.

I've always been chasing rainbows

Staring out of classroom windows.

I don't think I'll ever be happy

Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge.

I was too dumb to settle down

So I packed up and I left town

On a sunshine bus

Wondering where it all went wrong.

On a flimsy wing and a prayer

I followed my heart everywhere

'til I ended up

Right back where I started from.

I've always been quietly dreaming.

I don't know when I've been beaten.

I don't think I'll ever be happy

Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge.

I've always been chasing rainbows

Staring out of classroom windows.

I don't think I'll ever be happy

Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge.

I've always been quietly dreaming.

I don't know when I've been beaten.

I don't think I'll ever be happy

Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge.