Redemption Denied (Explicit)

You know sometimes when I get up in the morning,

I don't know if I can face another day

Because sh*t's been so f**king hard for so f**king long

And it don't seem like shits ever going to change.

Sometimes when I look in the mirrior,

I look despised at what I see cause pride

Strength, all of love and life they don't seem to have alot to do with me.

Feels like something went wrong with me a long time ago,

Something inside me way deep down died

And i can't remember when,

I just don't know where the f**k I went wrong...

What's life but a river of tears anyway, huh?

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For away to make my way through this world full of sh*t

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of sh*t

I've got nothing left

I await for the angel of death

I've lost too many times too many times to count the pain is so great

Let me tell you something, rock bottom is a sweet f**king dream,

A myth made up by a liar who's dispear you can slip into forever.

I've been as low as you can go

And i guess here at the bottom the only place you can go is up,

But everytime i get ahead everytime i start to get somewhere

It's seems like someone or something knocks me the f**k back down.

One step forward, two steps back.

I read somewhere Ł˘without hope you will dieŁ˘

...I think I've lost hope

I've got nothing left

I await for the angel of death

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great

I'm so tired of being f**ked up all the time

But i can't seem to do it any other way,

Maybe i'm not as strong as you

But sometimes my f**ked up life brings me down

When i look around.

My life it didn't make me hate

It just hardened something deep down inside of me.

I think it was my humanity.

I want it back, I want to feel normal again, I wanna feel like a human.

I don't wanna be like this no more,

I'm just looking for some shelter of salvation

Or something to believe in or just maybe someone who cared.

I've got nothing left

I await for the angel of death

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great

I never asked for life

I wish that at birth I had died

I tried to drown this hate

Death will be the cure for all this pain

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of sh*t

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of sh*t

I've got nothing left

I await for the angel of death

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great

I never asked for life

I wish that at birth I had died

I tried to drown this hate

Death will be the cure for all this pain

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of sh*t

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of sh*t

I've got nothing left

I await for the angel of death

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great

I never asked for life

I wish that at birth I had died

I tried to drown this hate

Death will be the cure for all this pain

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of sh*t

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of sh*t

There's no where to turn, everyone betrays you.

I can't trust anyone and I'm so f**king paranoid.

I'm allways waiting for the phone or door.

It's just nobody for sure.

I can't remember when a day's gone by

That i haven't thought about bringing myself up.

I know I ain't sh*t but I know I'll never be sh*t.

I've got no future but I think I can deal with it, I think I can live,

If i can just look at one person

And see them smile at me and know that they meant it.

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of sh*t

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of sh*t

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of sh*t

Every Day

Each f**king day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some f**king way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of sh*t