[00:00.00]Truth Hurts (Explicit) - BZZY/Sylvan LaCue/Nate Traveller
[00:20.75]Suicidal thoughts in my apartment
[00:22.64]This thing called love could be exhausting
[00:25.24]I found too much comfort in darkness
[00:27.73]I'm talking from the heart but your heartless so
[00:30.10]I'm sipping trying to get my mind off this
[00:32.26]To find myself in the p***y that I got lost in
[00:34.81]Disagreeing with both sides of my conscious like
[00:37.29]Do I want this Naw f**k it I'm off this
[00:39.58]So I hit the hotel bar and get a glass of whisky
[00:42.10]As I'm venting to the stranger sitting next to me
[00:44.53]The good things I messed up starting to mess with me
[00:46.76]The s**t I got away with starting to get to me
[00:49.88]I'm on some kurt co s**t
[00:51.24]Me being perfect that's a lie I gotta keep up with
[00:53.68]My girl thinks that I'm an angel
[00:55.07]My demons no strangers
[00:56.31]She admires the girl that I sneak out with
[00:59.02]In my music I talk about other women and
[01:01.92]Affairs I be having like she ain't listening
[01:04.10]I say it's just words when she asks about it
[01:06.46]She believes my lies and we laugh about it
[01:08.93]D**n I'm hurting in myself
[01:10.77]The love you deserve I'm searching for in myself
[01:13.22]How could I give it to you
[01:14.51]Ipf I ain't got it for me
[01:15.81]Girl this isn't just a verse I'm crying out for help
[01:19.30]But I tell her these are only words
[01:21.06]As I'm riding through the city with a friend of hers
[01:24.36]Trying to find better words
[01:25.98]I don't know how to tell her 'cause the truth hurts
[01:29.46]Before I jump I leave these words behind
[01:34.54]I been way too hard on myself
[01:39.36]I can lie try to say I'm fine
[01:44.27]But I'm tired and I need truth
[01:48.74]I'm coming home I'm coming home
[01:53.78]Would you please leave the door unlocked
[01:58.54]So I can wake up by your side
[02:02.85]One last time before I jump
[02:15.52]I told one of my best friends that
[02:17.09]I'ma kill him for f**king up my money
[02:19.30]Was I wrong for it
[02:20.65]Or maybe my friends ain't really friends
[02:22.36]And they just know where I'm going
[02:23.35]So they string along for it
[02:25.86]D**n I'm tired of ringing alarms
[02:28.44]I'm tired of hearing disses from people
[02:29.87]I help put on
[02:30.80]How quickly they forget really f**ks with my heart
[02:33.81]That s**t just really tears me apart
[02:36.40]Betrayal is something I don't forgive
[02:38.11]Yet I let them back in for them to backstab me again
[02:40.84]And if I die before I turn this album in
[02:43.07]All I ask is give my kid publishing
[02:45.75]Look I'm just trying to find what I lost
[02:47.68]Suicide bomber trying to die for a cost
[02:50.23]Nothing lasts forever it's hard to ignore
[02:52.47]I love her but I can't stay around 'till divorce
[02:55.92]'Cause when the truth comes out
[02:57.72]I don't wanna see you move out
[02:59.68]'Cause when the loves all gone
[03:00.95]And the pressure is on
[03:02.08]And the voodoos gone wrong what do you now
[03:05.33]Look I'm the modern day Van Gogh
[03:07.19]I made a pregnant woman cry all it sorrow
[03:09.76]Looking in the sky now all I see is crows
[03:12.12]My self portrait is in the music I wrote
[03:14.56]2 years since me and my best friend spoke
[03:17.02]I called him yesterday I
[03:18.06]Heard nothing back though
[03:19.68]I'm not saying that I'm not an asshole
[03:22.48]It's hard for me to let the past go
[03:25.13]I'm hanging on a tight rope
[03:26.82]Caroline is gone I'm sill suicidal
[03:29.22]Which goes to show wasn't her it was me
[03:31.96]Before I Jump I need y'all to see
[03:35.65]Before I jump I leave these words behind
[03:40.57]I been way too hard on myself
[03:45.29]I can lie try to say I'm fine
[03:50.31]But I'm tired and I need truth
[03:54.79]I'm coming home I'm coming home
[03:59.87]Would you please leave the door unlocked
[04:04.59]So I can wake up by your side
[04:09.05]One last time before I jump
[04:14.13]Way too many blunts 'cause I choke
[04:16.19]Remember back when I didn't smoke
[04:17.89]Hmm remember back when I didn't cope
[04:20.81]I'm wrong but I still defend the hoax
[04:23.10]I got it like I'm wearing poppas baseball
[04:24.95]Glove holding my s**t in
[04:26.29]All's well don't always end well practice forgiving
[04:28.55]We wasn't perfect I wanna let you in
[04:30.92]But do we deserve it
[04:32.04]Intentions got blurry
[04:33.18]Desire us plus the perks of our love and it irks me
[04:35.68]Betting off potential obsessed with our worries
[04:38.38]We're falling apart but f**k we're worthy
[04:40.29]Copped a place and got engaged
[04:41.56]What was we in a hurry for man
[04:43.57]Show me some mercy
[04:44.84]I done came a long way from Iced teas and McFlurrys
[04:46.84]From home cooked meals and phone booked bills and maturity
[04:49.30]Drove our bonds to obscurity
[04:50.69]I was selfish with my actions now I can't take it back
[04:53.51]Thoughts of my unborn been searching for some
[04:55.31]Answers to mourn
[04:55.98]And turn the scary pain of love into laughter
[04:58.20]For now I bare you farewell and save
[04:59.79]That ending for another chapter