I smile at the door
Then I lock it shut
The sink keeps running
But my throat feels stuck
Your name on my phone
Like a burned-out flame
I read it twice
Then I hide the frame
I keep it neat
I keep it small
I let it break
Behind these walls
Silent tears fall
Silent tears fall
I let them go
When no one calls
Silent tears fall
Silent tears fall
They hit the floor
And leave no sound at all
There’s a clean white towel
And a shaking hand
A cracked little mirror
That still understands
I wash my face
Till the truth runs thin
But every drop
Just pulls me in
I keep it neat
I keep it small
I let it break
Behind these walls
Silent tears fall
Silent tears fall
I let them go
When no one calls
Silent tears fall
Silent tears fall
They hit the floor
And leave no sound at all
If you saw me now
Would you know my name?
Or just the smile
I wear to stay the same?
I’m not made of stone
I’m just holding still
There’s a river here
I’ve been trying to kill
Silent tears fall
Silent tears fall
I let them go
When no one calls
Silent tears fall
Silent tears fall
They hit the floor
And leave no sound at all
Silent tears fall
Silent tears fall
I learn to breathe
Through what I can’t explain