[00:00.00]It Kills Me to Have to Be Alive - The Smith Street Band
[00:04.32]Something about the Summer I didn't cope with well
[00:11.64]And every time I walked in this room
[00:14.61]In the same spot tripped and felland I check my
[00:21.82]Spit for blood
[00:23.83]And I do not call enough
[00:28.52]I spill my guts for money
[00:32.74]But you don't find my jokes that funny
[00:40.76]There's something in
[00:41.56]The tone of my voice
[00:43.72]That makes you question everything I say
[00:48.04]And I will never learn to just shut my mouth
[00:52.63]And bury things our parents' way
[00:56.72]And you said that I should quit what I fear
[01:01.69]And I know I just wanted it to be my
[01:04.94]Idea
[01:05.69]And you said that I do not exist
[01:10.21]And I know at least now we agree on it
[01:18.35]And I'll keep telling myself
[01:22.21]That I'm not just here for everyone else
[01:27.13]Make plans for birthdays that I don't care if I
[01:33.91]Celebrate
[01:35.79]And I'm sorry that I can't be what everybody wants
[01:43.22]From me
[01:44.51]I do not feel that I am loved
[01:48.73]But I do not reach out enough
[01:55.38]But I'm reaching up
[02:10.94]I'll let this all fall down around me
[02:17.23]Yeah I'll let this all fall down around me
[02:23.99]Yeah I'll let this all fall down around me
[02:40.53]And I'll fail but at least I'll try
[02:44.53]It's the most I can hope for most of every
[02:48.44]Time
[02:49.20]It kills me to have to be alive
[02:53.00]It's killing me to have to be alive