It's so hard to say I'm sorry it's so hard to self reflect
Make the world a better place I'll put a bullet in my head
I'm still runnin' outta friends steady runnin' from the past
Ain't no lil' piece of heaven all these demons that I have
I am broken I am tired I am lonely and depressed
I am made up of mistakes I'll start goin' down the list
I'm a product of my father I'm a addict like my sister
I'm so sick I need a doctor
Spent some time in institutions back at home with my mama
Had to run away to Houston
Had a girl she was a goddess I f**ked up and had to lose her
I see darkness all around me put my soul into the music
I am always f**kin' doubting my every single movement
I saw violence in my home I seen s**t I can't forget
I got anxieties and tendencies and memories repressed
Rip this s**t up off my chest put these bullets in a clip
Press the muzzle to my face and pull the trigger now I'm
It's so hard to end it all I wanna try to make it right
It's so hard to live at all all these obstacles in life
Make it hard for us all made a f**k up of my life
I'd give anything at all to take back a little time
I'm a beast I'm a dog I'm a runaway slave
I'm like Malcolm I'm like Martin bein' locked in a cage
Tell Jesus Come and save me I got goals and a pager
Misdemeanors on the papers El Dorados on the Daytons
See me float above the pavement
I'm a f**kin' mental patient that's my f**kin' mission statement
I've been sittin' waitin' patient
I can hear what n***as sayin' send me curses see me prayin'
I could sell a blunt to Satan all these trenches that I lay in
All this chaos that I stay in see my fate and know it's waitin'
This a new beginning call me Jesus king of n***as
My sermon is delivered rollin' swishers writin' scriptures
Many pains and many issues this my written crucifixion
I'ma sing a song of David I remember Wayne and Baby
I done seen them n***as leakin'
Screamin' Jesus come and save me
I don't know if I'ma make it I just know that life ain't easy
Gettin' harder while I'm breathin'
N***as die inside of Beamers they don't even need a reason
Guns clappin' get to squeezin'
N***as killin' it ain't easy
Rent due and it ain't easy
Call his name but he ain't breathin'
Mama cryin' it ain't easy
Hard times it ain't easy
It ain't easy
