I never wanted this story
But I ain't gonna lie about it either
She failed 'em
But I won't
Never loved the mother, just loved my kids
Now I pray to God they don't see what she did
Thirteen years in, and the pain don't fade
Had daughters with a demon I wish I never laid
Never loved the mother, just shared blood
She love coke, crack, dope, and the plug
Tat's on her face, lies in her mouth
And three little souls growin' up with doubt
She was wild from the jump, I knew that vibe
St. Mary's slut, but I still tried
Had my son young, and I stayed through storms
Even when she vanished, high, in form
Got back together, meth in my lungs
She smiled and said,"Glad it was you, not me, hun"
That stuck with me like a scar too deep
While she ran through pipes, I lost my sleep
Had two daughters after that wreck
Swore I'd protect them with every breath
But she used 'em as income, bait, and pawn
Posted selfies high while the babies yawned
Never loved the mother, just loved my kids
Now I pray to God they don't see what she did
Thirteen years in, and the pain don't fade
Had daughters with a demon I wish I never laid
Never loved the mother, just shared blood
She love coke, crack, dope, and the plug
Tat's on her face, lies in her mouth
And three little souls growin' up with doubt
I hate that I gave her my name, my time
Hate that I let her near blood of mine
She a walking ad for every regret
Got"hoe" on her knuckles, shame on her breath
"Jessie fkn Brooks" that's her tag
And I gotta say"that's my kids' mom" fuckin' drag
Told one of my boys, he said"Drealer, no!"
I said"bro, it's facts, and the kids don't know"
She got high while I cleaned their mess
Used them for checks while she smoked to death
Had a tat sayin'"I love crack cocaine"
And the worst part? She meant it no shame
My son needs peace, not a cracked-out shell
My girls need love, not a fentanyl smell
I carry their hurt, I speak what's true
'Cause their mama won't but their daddy do
I tuck 'em in with a mind full of war
Prayin' they grow into more than the floor
She gave 'em her name, but I gave 'em light
And I'll die before I let her ruin their life
They gon' ask one day, and I'll tell it clean
Their mama chose pipes, I chose routine
I chose to fight, I chose to stay
Even when I was broke and my heart went grey
She chose streets, she chose the smoke
Tat her face, but it won't hide the joke
Her whole life's pain, and mine's protection
She lost her soul I raised reflection
They'll grow strong and they'll know the cost
What it means to fight when the cause feels lost
They'll see the scars and feel my flame
But they'll never, ever carry her shame
Never loved the mother, just loved my kids
Now I pray to God they don't see what she did
Thirteen years in, and the pain don't fade
Had daughters with a demon I wish I never laid
Never loved the mother, just shared blood
She love coke, crack, dope, and the plug
Tat's on her face, lies in her mouth
And three little souls growin' up with doubt
To my kids:
I don't care what she says
You were always mine
And you'll never be what she became
I swear that
Doug Drealer
Forever father. Never fake
