excuses (edit|Explicit)

Thursday night, you'd reset it in a heartbeat

Never said I'm calling it quits, you gave me options

Everyone around me was right, relied on godspeed

Call me up, I'm pickin' up pissed off, and lost

But there's a party in the six, with a roof ready to be ripped off

Middle fingers up to the bitch who left me abyssal

I'll be getting rich wit' the windows tinted, and lift off

Alcoholic sippin', I'm henny driven to drift off

You'll prolly never notice, bet you never wanna see me again

You ain't expect this shit would blow up way in over our heads

The world's gone dark, and I've come up with excuse to pretend

With a heart gone stark, I don't need you like I used to forget

The late nights, I'd race time, to end fights

All I ever saw was what's together and a happy end

How many times, I'd ask why, you'd stay silent

In a place you'd once grown to understand

But if my funeral's first, would you attend?

I feel like everything by then'd be dispersed, and you'd forget my name

What changed? Exchanging three words, you never meant

I broke time first, passed months, I only felt a thread

Repeated nights of love, lust, and envy

Found out what it took to cut ties, put out the flame

Wish you'd told me prior, conditions they weren't dauntless

Gauntlets, blade to the wire, I didn't want this

Friday night, I'd react in the worst way

Blind without your light, we took turns, and paused play

Never could accept I never wanted all my options

Never could've guessed she would've dropped me in a coffin

But there's a party in the six, with a roof ready to be ripped off

Middle fingers up to the bitch who left me abyssal

I'll be getting rich wit' the windows tinted, and lift off

Alcoholic sippin', I'm henny driven to drift off

You'll prolly never notice, bet you never wanna see me again

You ain't expect this shit would blow up way in over our heads

The world's gone dark, and you'd come up with excuse to pretend

With a heart gone stark, I don't need you like I used to forget

The late nights, I'd race time, to end fights

All I ever saw was what's broken, and a miserable end

Too many times, I'd ask why, you'd stay silent

Why'd we stay silent?

My heart's been getting heavy, and I feel like I might pass out

Downed another henny, now I'm waiting for the blackout

I dug a grave inside the bottle, times bleeding

Black blood, black tears, everything's lost meaning

I feel blind

My heart aches

Tears I cried

Were heart shaped

I want love

Found heartbreak

Drink away the pain when I walk away

You ripped apart my soul and left me bleeding

Excuses on excuses, you could never give a reason

But there's a party in the six, with a roof ready to be ripped off

Middle fingers up to the bitch who left me abyssal

I'll be getting rich wit' the windows tinted, and lift off

Alcoholic sippin', I'm henny driven to drift off

You'll prolly never notice, bet you never wanna see me again

You ain't expect this shit would blow up way in over our heads

The world's gone dark, and I've come up with excuse to pretend

With a heart gone stark, I don't need you like I used to forget