All Too Well (Explicit)

I can’t lie I ****ing miss it

Every day it crosses my mind

Even after all the sweats and shivers

The ones that kept me up at night

I still want it

Swear I need it even if its only one more time

You know my ways

You know me all too well

You control my mind, do take your time

Put me under your spell

You could break it down for me

Make the voices drown for me

It’s no surprise I was hooked

You read me like an open book and took advantage

When my negative percecptions creep in

You would always be there to defeat them

You helped me stop remembering

All the trauma, all the pain

All the drama, nothing gained

You know my ways

You know me all too well

You control my mind, do take your time

Put me under your spell

I had to get away from what you made me

A hollow body of my former self

Otherwise I would have caved in

Had to bite the bullet and fight the cravings

Cold sweats and sleepless nights

Weren’t the only struggles I was facing

Getting clean was a tall order

But I was ready to take a stand

Little did I know that I’d be back

Relapsed

Back in your trance again

You know my ways

You know me all too well

You control my mind, do take your time

Put me under your spell