If you didn’t text me late that night
Would I still be losing sleep to light?
If I blocked you when I should’ve
Would I be healing now — or colder?
If he saw the things you said
Would he still hold your hand in bed?
Or would he question what you hide
Behind your “good girl” alibi?
I don’t hate you, just regret
That I stayed in your silhouette
You moved on, but kept a thread
Just enough to keep me dead
If I mattered, you would’ve stayed
If you loved me, you’d feel afraid
If I meant more than a game
You wouldn’t whisper my name
But “if” won’t build a better truth
It only echoes what we lose
I can’t rewrite what’s already gone
So I’ll stop asking what went wrong
If you cried when I let go
Why'd you smile when you said no?
You love control, not who you hold
You kept me close just to feel bold
If you loved him, why need me?
Why replay our memories secretly?
Your lips said “over,” your eyes said “wait”
But I ain't here to negotiate
If I was yours, I’d know it loud
Not in whispers or a cloud
You blurred the line, then crossed it blind
Left me tracing what we never defined
If I mattered, you would’ve stayed
If you loved me, you’d feel afraid
If I meant more than a game
You wouldn’t whisper my name
But “if” won’t build a better truth
It only echoes what we lose
I can’t rewrite what’s already gone
So I’ll stop asking what went wrong
If you read this...
Don’t reply.
Just…
Remember why.
