hate you to love myself (Explicit)

I think my sorrys got redundant

And I’m pretty sure

I took the fun out of it

I’m to blame

For the way that you look both ways

When someone brings me up

Cause I know I ruined what we started

Now that I’m alone in my brain

I know what I’ve done

The way that I carry the shame

It f__ks me up

I was learning not to hate myself and

I’m sorry for the way I broke you down

I was living in a perfect world

(No no)

Here’s to hoping it all works out

I was giving you the same excuses

But I’m trying hard to change and figure it out

Looking back I know you didn’t deserve it

(No no)

I had to hate you to love myself

I think I’m making some improvements

Cause’ I finally saw that therapist

And he says i’m okay,

by the way

that i don’t turn away

each time he brings you up ohhh

i’m getting better but the truth is

I was learning not to hate myself and

I’m sorry for the way I broke you down

I was living in a perfect world

(No no)

Here’s to hoping it all works out

I was giving you the same excuses

But I’m trying hard to change and figure it out

Looking back I know you didn’t deserve it

(No no)

I had to hate you to love myself

I had to hate you to love myself

Now that I’m alone in my brain

I know what I’ve done

I remember the look on your face

That f__ks me up

I was learning not to hate myself and

I’m sorry for the way I broke you down

I was living in a perfect world

(No no)

Here’s to hoping it all works out

I was giving you the same excuses

But I’m trying hard to change and figure it out

Looking back I know you didn’t deserve it

(No no)

I had to hate you to love myself

(No no)

I had to hate you to love myself