Unsent (Don’t Hit Send)

My thumb keeps hovering like it’s brave

Then it freezes like it knows better

I write your name, then erase

Like I’m trying to save you from my weather

Do you ever miss me at all

Or is that just my pride talking

I tell myself, “don’t be that guy”

But my heart keeps walking

I don’t wanna pull you backwards

I don’t wanna break your peace

But every night I start a message

And I don’t know how to leave

Don’t hit send

Don’t hit send

Leave it unsent, let it sit

Let my hands stay off your name

Don’t hit send

Don’t hit send

Let it die in my throat

’Cause you won’t be my home

I open our thread, then close it

Like the glow is gonna give me away

I practice “how’ve you been” so soft

Like I won’t be the reason your hands shake

You used to answer fast—back then

When I still acted like I didn’t care

Now I’m stuck with all this wanting

And nowhere to put it but air

If you reply, I’ll fall apart

If you don’t, I’ll do it too

So I keep choosing this silence

Like it’s the kindest thing to do

Don’t hit send

Don’t hit send

Leave it unsent, let it sit

Let my hands stay off your name

Don’t hit send

Don’t hit send

Let it die in my throat

’Cause you won’t be my home

Some nights I swear I hear you

In the way the room won’t sleep

Then I hate myself for hoping

For a door you won’t keep

(um~)

Don’t hit send

Don’t hit send

Leave it unsent, let it sit

Let my hands just drop the phone

Don’t hit send

Don’t hit send

I’m shaking, but I won’t

’Cause you won’t be my home

Don’t hit send

Don’t hit send

I type it out, then bury it

That’s all I ever do

If you ever wanted to hear it—

I almost said it.