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A girl who craves for attention

Who was longing for affection

I was molded for perfection

But there's no appreciation

I was ignored and abandoned

Survived from my Mom's abortion

Reason why I had to live on

So I can carry the burden

I was just a child

But I was a provider

I needed to be tough

Coz my life is harder

Yet I never complained

To mother and father

That's why I have

To be the obedient daughter

All this time Ive tried my best

To be better than the rest

Why do people hate and abandon me?

When all I did is to make them happy?

I thought I was doing fine and okay?

But why does it always ends

In this way?

Still wondering

Why they're all judging me?

For being loving, true,kind and friendly

But what else do

I have to prove and say?

Coz Ive done everything

To make them stay

Falling in love was deep and hard

Always ends in a broken heart

Guess I was dumb and not so smart

Coz life was tearing me apart

Was born full of pain and curiosity

I have depression and anxiety

I dont belong in this society

I guess this is it,my reality

Its like life is full of test

Still so hard to be the best

Why do people hate and abandon me?

When all I did is to make them happy?

I thought I was doing fine and okay?

But why does it always ends

In this way?

Still wondering why

They're all judging me?

For being loving, true,kind and friendly

But what else do

I have to prove and say?

Coz Ive done everything

To make them stay

All this time I want to feel accepted

The love, the care, be appreciated

Yet why I feel being dominated

I am so confused and so frustrated?

Why do people hate and abandon me?

When all I did is to make them happy?

I thought I was doing fine and okay?

But why does it always ends

In this way?

Still wondering

Why they're all judging me?

For being loving, true kind and friendly

But what else do

I have to prove and say?

Coz Ive done everything

To make them stay

Why do people hate and abandon me?

When all I did is to make them happy?

I thought I was doing fine and okay?

But why does it always ends

In this way?

Still wondering why

They're all judging me?

For being loving, true,kind and friendly

But what else do

I have to prove and say?

Coz Ive done everything

To make them stay

Maybe I'm just unlucky in this life

Can I just end myself tonight?