mama said i should pray more
but i'm speechless when I try
cuz the words inside are scary
and I'm afraid of the reply
does he hear me just as clearly in the quiet?
I've planned my death to the milligram
and walked up to the line
but jesus in his mercy
made me nervous at the time
it's easier to hurt myself than fix my broken mind
I know that it's selfish
but I can't help it
I wish it was different
I wish I was different
