[00:00.09]Drowning (Explicit) - Sik World
[00:00.70]Lyrics by：Jonathon Quiles
[00:00.82]Composed by：Jonathon Quiles
[00:02.39]Stay wanna stay gonna
[00:14.49]Yeah I wish I can numb this pain
[00:16.49]I thought by now I won't complain
[00:17.96]I got the cash with half the fame
[00:19.28]Lost half my heart and kept the veins
[00:20.61]We had our spark and lost our flame
[00:22.05]I tried to talk had none to say
[00:23.30]I want the love you never gave was hurting me
[00:25.34]Your only aim
[00:26.13]You shot my heart I bled out hate
[00:27.58]'Cause tho you left the trauma stayed
[00:28.97]I wish the past would go away
[00:30.32]But I guess gotta live with it
[00:31.69]Times changed I don't feel different
[00:33.06]Despite the hurdles in my life
[00:34.02]I kept my vision alive
[00:35.00]I had no one on my side
[00:35.86]Yet I still did it
[00:36.90]I'm missing the old me talking pre depression
[00:38.66]Where I felt alive and I had a connection
[00:40.56]Now I'm dead inside 'cause I lost my direction
[00:42.29]I don't put my wall down for my own protection
[00:44.57]And I'm tired of people using me people lie
[00:46.49]What do you believe
[00:47.54]I know people see the truth in me
[00:48.93]And I know one day you will see
[00:50.09]That being true was a tool for me
[00:51.62]I be sticking to myself I don't need nobody else
[00:53.43]Just relief from this trauma that keeps on ruining me
[00:55.62]'Cause lately I'm loosing sleep
[00:57.15]And nobody's getting thru' to me
[00:58.55]It's 'cause it
[00:59.61]Feels like I'm losing sleep
[01:01.34]I want my mind at ease
[01:03.19]Feels like I'm losing me
[01:04.98]I wanna find relief
[01:06.78]Feels like I need to breathe
[01:08.76]I think I'm into deep now
[01:11.72]I'm drowning in my thoughts
[01:14.69]Drowning by myself
[01:18.13]I'm drowning I need help
[01:21.85]I'm drowning they can't tell
[01:25.43]I'm drowning oh
[01:35.80]Yeah
[01:36.61]I'm still here and still driven
[01:37.80]People see me as a meal ticket
[01:39.05]They get nothing they can deal with it
[01:40.40]I guess me and them were built different
[01:41.92]I work for whatever I'm given
[01:43.30]I been living inside of my room since I was 15
[01:45.19]Making a bunch of songs hoping somebody gets me
[01:47.14]I always felt alone and the feeling is sickening
[01:48.94]When you're expressing your pain
[01:50.01]And no one is listening and
[01:51.76]Life's hard to manage
[01:52.76]I feel like I have a disadvantage
[01:54.29]Since my childhood left me hella damaged
[01:56.24]I don't know love because I never had it
[01:57.99]Every relationship I'm in never lasted
[01:59.83]Only toxic woman was all I attracted
[02:01.66]I continuously fear having attachments
[02:03.71]Honestly it was really hard getting past it but
[02:06.48]It is what it is you get what you give
[02:08.86]I wish I learned quicker look I probably did
[02:11.46]Just didn't accept it
[02:13.02]Inside of my mind is where my demons roam
[02:14.74]I try to hide 'cause they won't leave me alone
[02:16.60]I overthink all of my mistakes on my own
[02:18.34]I don't know where to go it's 'cause it
[02:20.62]Feels like I'm losing sleep
[02:22.51]I want my mind at ease
[02:24.42]Feels like I'm losing me
[02:26.22]I wanna find relief
[02:28.04]Feels like I need to breathe
[02:29.99]I think I'm into deep now
[02:33.15]I'm drowning in my thoughts
[02:36.37]Drowning by myself
[02:39.41]I'm drowning I need help
[02:43.00]I'm drowning they can't tell
[02:46.76]I'm drowning oh