My doors are locked
The lights are off
And I am trembling in fear
I'm alive but I wish I wasn't here oh
The rope around my neck has snapped and all I feel is fear
For all the people in my life I hold dear
The time is passing away too slowly for me to not feel regret
For all the joy and pain that caused this life to live today but yet
My mind is swimming in the river flowing down into death
But I can't save myself oh why oh why am I just
Such a mess
Why do I try so hard to live
But I live in fear
Why do I try to find release
When it's just right here
Everyday I fall apart
And fall back to the start
Why can't I why can't I
Build the courage to
I'm alone again my phone is dead and I just dread
Getting up from the edge of my bed oh
Life's a pill that's hard to swallow but the pills in my hand
Are so much harder when my pain doesn't end
Ah why can't I breathe on more time
And safely say it's my last
Ah why can't I look myself in the eye
And say a simple
Goodbye
The trains are passing one by one before I even take a step
And in my ears are just the deafening sound of another breath
Oh please just let me go
I'm barely hanging by a thread
Why do I strive to sleep
But keep escaping my eternal rest
Why do I try so hard to live
But I live in fear
Why do I try to find release
When it's just right here
Everyday I fall apart
And fall back to the start
Why can't I why can't I
Build the courage to
