Clear Again

Stared at this screen till the words all blurred

Coffee gone cold

Every thought a slur

Heart feels heavy

Head feels loud

I forget what I'm even stressed about

Let me be tired for a moment

Let me lean back

Let me breathe

I am not a broken engine

Just a mind that needs some sleep

Phone keeps buzzing like a nervous friend

Deadlines circling

Tapping at the fence

I cancel one more thing

Turn the ringer down

Try to hear my pulse instead of all these sounds

I don't have to earn my resting

I don't need a reason just to stop

Slow is still a kind of progress

Every pause is holding me up

Curtains half open

Late afternoon

Dust in the sunlight

Quiet little moons

I count my inhales

Trace them to my toes

Let the rush run out

Let the river slow

I can start again tomorrow

I can leave this day undone

Healing hides in small decisions

Like choosing peace

Then choosing it again

Text a friend back with a simple line

“Hey

I’m worn out

Can we talk sometime?”

They send a heart

Say they understand

I remember I’m allowed to ask for a hand

I am still here

Still worth the effort

Even when my colors fade

I am not my worst exhaustion

I’m the one who made it through today

So I’ll dim the lights and close the laptop

Let the silence turn the volume down

In the quiet

Every fraying thought stops

I meet myself again on gentler ground (Oh)

Let me be tired for a moment

Let me lean back

Let me breathe

I am not a broken engine

Just a mind that needs some sleep