[00:00.68]Check out the mess I've made
[00:02.55]
[00:03.60]I'm 19 and I'm plotting graves
[00:05.73]I've got some special K
[00:06.79]And an 8 ball of fun
[00:08.22]3 bags why not
[00:09.66]Tonight I take the bible to the grave
[00:11.84]Well I'm going out
[00:13.03]Oh yes I'm checking out
[00:14.58]I'm a waste of being and by gosh I believe
[00:17.52]This is really me OD'ing
[00:19.08]I'm OD'ing
[00:19.90]Oh F**k I'm bleeding from my mouth
[00:22.32]
[00:23.02]Another walks in on a respiratory failure gone right
[00:25.64]
[00:27.94]Can a failure go right
[00:30.13]
[00:31.00]I'm a failure gone right
[00:32.81]
[00:33.62]What kind of friend leaves the door locked and doesn't come in
[00:38.48]Is he afraid what he'll find
[00:41.28]
[00:42.09]Is he ashamed I got there first
[00:44.34]
[00:47.89]Was it fun to commit an act on life
[00:50.59]Was it fun
[00:51.58]
[00:53.45]Was it fun to call my dad to pick me up
[00:55.95]
[00:56.64]Weighing in at 101
[00:58.13]
[00:59.01]Was it fun to say the foil on the floor was from the junkie the night before
[01:03.38]Lying to cheat and cheating to steal
[01:06.99]We are all just teenage criminals
[01:09.37]Hold on Hold on
[01:11.55]And just grab a grip
[01:12.86]Its never been shocking before
[01:16.74]
[01:17.35]They couldn't put it past me anymore
[01:19.48]No not anymore
[01:21.03]I've committed moral sin
[01:22.40]I pray I don't go back to the way I was before
[01:25.10]
[01:26.47]But I've never liked to feel
[01:28.28]No don't like to feel
[01:29.46]More likely I'm no better than a suicidal god of war
[01:32.02]Another walks in on a respiratory failure gone right
[01:40.57]
[01:42.63]Can a failure go right
[01:44.87]
[01:45.75]I'm a failure gone right
[01:47.06]
[01:48.61]What kind of friend leaves the door locked and doesn't come in
[01:52.12]
[01:53.61]Is he afraid what he'll find
[01:55.60]
[01:56.67]Is he ashamed I got there first
[01:58.66]
[02:00.16]No you never wanted me
[02:01.47]
[02:02.09]I swear I didn't write this because I care
[02:04.47]
[02:05.41]I'm writing I'm just being honest
[02:07.15]
[02:07.89]The record just needs its fair share
[02:10.02]
[02:11.21]Hold on Hold on
[02:12.46]And just grab a grip
[02:13.83]Its never been shocking before
[02:18.00]They couldn't put it past me anymore
[02:20.19]No not anymore
[02:21.93]I've committed moral sin
[02:23.24]I pray I don't go back to the way I was before
[02:27.55]But I've never liked to feel
[02:28.99]No don't like to feel
[02:30.17]More likely I'm no better than a suicidal god of war
[02:33.23]I'm no son of god right
[02:41.76]
[02:45.88]What is the color of night
[03:13.57]
[03:14.38]Some it's black it's just right
[03:16.76]
[03:17.63]And at the end of the day
[03:19.95]It's alright
[03:21.44]What is the color of night
[03:24.94]
[03:25.81]Some it's black it's just right
[03:27.74]
[03:28.99]And at the end of the day
[03:30.80]
[03:31.48]It's alright
[03:33.55]
[03:34.61]What is the color of night
[03:36.10]
[03:37.23]Some it's black it's just right
[03:39.48]
[03:40.48]And at the end of the day
[03:42.28]
[03:42.85]It's alright
[03:43.41]
[03:46.09]What is the color of night
[03:47.46]
[03:48.71]Some it's black it's just right
[03:51.08]
[03:51.89]And at the end of the day
[03:53.51]
[03:54.33]It's alright
[03:55.07]
[03:56.89]Elevate:I Am - Chapter 19