It's hard to breath and hard to run when your lungs black and
Coughing up blood like what the f**k happened
Raising my wrist to cancer's the answer homie
But after drinking something it's nothing like puffin a bogie
Now I could blame the same product placements in movies
All the commercials or scarface in a jacuzzi
But now I'm living it damn I shoulda never took that first cigarette
I f**ked up like your girl was riding on top of me
I shoulda took her to trial and never copped a plea
But this ain't a Christian nation motherf**ker please
America never taught me to turn the other cheek
Cause I'm from Harlem the north of Manhattan
We knock niggas out and make 'em bounce like Ricky Hatton
But wildin' on the corner got me turned back from the Canadian border
I knew she was a virgin when I first met her
Rockin stocking popping out of the catholic school sweater
Mom told me she could do better than a criminal
Seventeen year old psychotic trying to be lyrical
I never meant to break her heart or f**k up her life
But I was careless instead of treating her right
I seen her again at some club stripping
And wondered if I could have made her life different
I joined the army looking for money to go to college
But they didn't pay me a quarter of what they f**king promised
Extended my tour treated me like a sucker
That's the reason offices get fragged motherf**ker
Don't give me speeches on how you respect and you love me
But no body armor in a lightly armored Humvee
My family's lonely and you want me to re-enlist for thirty grand homie
When I was young I got signed to a record label
The deal looked so good when it was on the table
It paid for my cable cribs cars and jewelry the studios the women
There's nothing they wouldn't do for me
Except stop screwing me for publishing the royalties
How the f**k are you my dog when there's no loyalty
Word to the street I shoulda gone independent like Immortal Technique
Some people learn from mistakes and don't repeat them
Others try to block the memories and just delete them
But I keep them as a reminder they not killing me
And I thank God for teaching me humility
Son remember when you fight to be free
To see things how they are and not how you like 'em to be
Cause even when the world is falling on top of me
Pessimism is an emotion not a philosophy
Knowing what's wrong doesn't imply that you right
And it's another when you suffer to apply it in life
But I'm no rookie and I'm never gonna make the same mistake twice p**sy
