America's Next Model - Hotel Books
I wanted us to be model citizens
So no one would ask us about our sins
But there's an intoxicating thrill that comes
With entering a home of love and finding skeletons in the closet
And there's something about community that creates competition
And something about competition that leaves me feeling uninvited
And the ones that stain the healthy way
And inspired my faith are the same ones
Who are ready to jump ship
The second thing turns to fifth and the path
I'm on diminishes or the lights on the sides
Of the road that I walk down fall dim
And I'm sorry darling but you were the worst of it
I used to feel alone when I thought that nobody loved me in truth
But now I feel alone when I think about the way that you do
You told me you didn't want me to fall asleep
With bitterness in my heart so I guess I'll just stay awake
You said you could tell me and only me
And I wouldn't fall apart but you couldn't see me stand
When I began to break
And I was told that true character shows when no one's around
But I felt like no one wanted me around
And the sound of the ground being punished by my feet
And the solitude I find when I put ice on my shaking knees
Resound in a profound runaround of emotionally bound conclusions
I came to I felt like I was going to drown
And the bitterness you thought I felt was
Just your own mind confusing bitterness with acceptance
And fixing our broken home with wasting time
Because you thought it would begin
And sometimes I hear the crack on the windowsill
And I miss the days when it had a picture of you and I
And I miss the emotions that came with chasing after this thrill
But mostly I just miss being a part of your life
And I remember when you stopped saying
I love you unless you were just saying I love you too
And then I remember when even that was too hard for you
And I remember the day that our blue suitcase on the top
Shelf of my closet disappeared
And so did the passion you had for me here
And the fear of knowing you could leave me had vanished
But so did the reason I ever felt purpose
And it hurts to know that you said goodbye
But I just thank god that you're alive
And I'm happy that you're happy
And my joy comes from knowing you were once mine
And I'm grateful for that
And even though there's so many words I wish I could take back
I still thank my god every time I remember you
I still thank my god every time I remember you
