Disconnected (Alt. Version)

Out on a limb here

Just letting this year pass

Every second crawling with no help from you

It's all a blur when

I get the feeling that

Everyone is bullshit so I must be too

I'm undeserving of this old house of cards

Trust me, I will find a quick way to lose

Stuck with the fear of living a better life

It's easy to feel safe

When there's nothing to prove

Set me on fire

Throw me away

I'd rather feel this than nothing

I know how to be afraid

Call me a liar

Make me feel small

I feel like this world should break me

But nothing changes after all

I'll never be perfect

But neither will you

In words left unspoken

We've buried the truth

No room left to breath here

Pressed under the knife

I know I deserve the silence of a disconnected life

Just for example

Say you forget me

To start over apart and rebuild something new

It sounds familiar

Endings begin again

Each mistake I'm learning a lesson from you

You know the scope of my inadequacies

Between the lies you acknowledge I'm here

I'll take the fall for the faults of who we are

Give me all the blame when I give in to fear

Set me on fire

Throw me away

I'd rather feel this than nothing

I know how to be afraid

Call me a liar

Make me feel small

I feel like this world should break me

But nothing changes after all

I'll never be perfect

But neither will you

In words left unspoken

We've buried the truth

No room left to breath here

Pressed under the knife

I know I deserve the silence of a disconnected life

Crowded out, yet alone

In this house, not a home

I can't find the will to settle

In your eyes, I see pain

Not quite mine, but the same

You can't help but try to meddle

I've been sleepwalking again

Mindlessly searched for the end

What's in my head, and can I rest it?

I'm disconnected from you

My efforts leaving me bruised

Am I loved, or am I desperate?

Set me on fire

Throw me away

I'd rather feel this than nothing

I know how to be afraid

Call me a liar

Make me feel small

I feel like this world should break me

But nothing changes after all

I'll never be perfect

But neither will you

In words left unspoken

We've buried the truth

No room left to breath here

Pressed under the knife

I know I deserve the silence of a disconnected life