I Curse The Silence

I’ve been screaming at the ceiling

But the echoes never bleed

Every prayer I tried to whisper

Falls and shatters under me

If You wanted me to follow

Why did You turn out the light?

Why give breath into my lungs

If You’d leave me here to fight?

Every night, I break a little

Burning with a holy fear

If You’re there, then why this distance?

Why can’t You pull me near?

So I curse the silence

Every second that You hide

I’m not angry ’cause I hate You

I’m just hurting deep inside

I curse the silence

’Cause it cuts me like a knife

Why did You let me drown alone

When You could have saved my life?

People say You’re always with me

But the room is cold and blank

I’ve been holding on to nothing

Dying underneath the weight

If my tears were loud enough

Would You finally hear me break?

Tell me, God, what did I do..

For You to turn and walk away?

I’ve been clawing at the darkness

Trying just to feel You breathe

But the world keeps getting heavier

And Your silence follows me

So I curse the silence

Every heartbeat left unheard

I’m not bitter ’cause I hate You

I’m just bleeding from Your hurt

I curse the silence

’Cause I prayed with all my might

But You never came to hold me

On the loneliest of nights

If anger is devotion..

Then maybe I’m still Yours..

’Cause I only scream Your name

When I can’t take this anymore

So I curse the silence

As it swallows up my cries

God, I’m angry ’cause I love You

And You left me here to die

I curse the silence

But I’m begging You to stay..

’Cause the truth beneath the fury is..

I want You anyway..