[00:00.29]Deathwish (Explicit) - Lil Xtra
[00:01.18]Lyrics by：Steven Clayton Roney
[00:02.23]Composed by：Steven Clayton Roney
[00:20.90]Once upon a long long time ago
[00:23.79]I used to have these dreams I thought
[00:26.36]One day I'd find some purpose
[00:28.82]Over time I've realized I am not
[00:31.95]Conquering the things I fear
[00:34.54]Capable of breaking through
[00:37.20]Lost the things I once held dear
[00:39.44]I don't know what the **** to do
[00:41.94]Left beliefs that once defined me
[00:44.21]My best days are long behind me
[00:46.78]Half the time I'm breathing in
[00:49.11]I'm dreaming of the day I finally stop
[00:52.81]Check my feelings at the door
[00:55.09]I don't know what I'm fighting for
[00:57.69]I used to pray that things would change
[01:00.38]But now I'm well aware they're not
[01:02.62]'Cause I used to say that everything will be alright
[01:07.63]But it never will be so I stay in my bed
[01:12.39]And I hate when you call
[01:14.62]And say you should come out tonight
[01:17.95]I just bought an ounce I'm gonna smoke it instead
[01:22.70]Yeah
[01:34.28]Stop ******* telling me I'm fine
[01:36.85]I hate the way you keep your cool
[01:39.81]I'm aware you're always right
[01:42.02]Go on and play me for the fool
[01:44.96]Take the blood out of my veins
[01:47.57]Go on do your worst to me
[01:50.02]I wouldn't wish this type of pain
[01:52.80]On my own worst enemy
[01:54.79]Lay in bed but never sleep
[01:57.00]I tried to fight but I'm too weak
[01:59.51]And every time I try to speak
[02:02.15]I end up drunk and sobbing on the floor
[02:05.89]Heard you're doing better now
[02:08.11]It makes it worse I don't know how
[02:10.75]The world keeps turning I can't breathe
[02:13.41]I just can't do this anymore
[02:15.43]'Cause I used to say that everything will be alright
[02:20.59]But it never will be so I stay in my bed
[02:25.44]And I hate when you call
[02:27.59]And say you should come out tonight
[02:31.06]I just bought an ounce I'm gonna smoke it instead
[02:35.53]Yeah
[02:36.51]I used to pray that everything would be alright
[02:41.44]But nothing could hear me
[02:43.60]'Cause there's nothing
[02:45.61]Nothing at all
[02:46.78]'Cause I used to say that everything will be alright
[02:51.85]But it never will be so I stay in my bed
[02:56.67]And I hate when you call
[02:59.20]And say you should come out tonight
[03:02.28]I just bought an ounce I'm gonna smoke it instead
[03:06.93]Yeah
[03:07.78]I used to pray that everything would be alright
[03:12.74]But it never will be so I stay in my bed
[03:17.62]And I won't take your call I'm not going out tonight
[03:23.22]I'll never be alright I wish I was dead yeah
[03:28.62]I used to pray that everything would be alright
[03:34.11]But it never will be
[03:36.63]I wish I wish I was dead