cbb to b sad (Explicit)

well i hate myself

i hate that i’m sitting on top of your body, thinkin’ ‘bout somethin’ else

****in’ with my eyes shut

nowhere you touch me is enough to stop me looking for a way out

i’ve become that person, yeah i’m selfish, i’m weak and suddenly i hate the way you speak

the way you eat me out

i draw my curtain, yeah it’s harder to lie in the light

i see you looking at me, waiting for me

well i know i shouldn’t be with you but i can’t be bothered to be sad

i’m so lonely next to your body knowing that you don’t know i feel this bad

funny how time changes your mind and you were once the best thing i ever had

then you roll over and kiss my shoulder, maybe i love you, maybe i’m just mad

well i hate myself

i used to be fun and cool, now i don’t fancy myself

pickin’ up old fights, tryna make you hate me cause i can’t be straight when you ask if i’m alright

well it’s my problem, yeah i’m selfish, i’m weak and suddenly i see i’m in too deep

gonna hurt to leave

and i don’t wanna solve it, even though you repulse me every time you love me and you look at me

waiting for me