cbb to b sad (Explicit)

Well I hate myself

I hate that i’m sitting on top of your body

Thinkin’ ‘bout somethin’ else

Fuckin’ with my eyes shut

Nowhere you touch me is enough

To stop me looking for a way out

I’ve become that person, yeah I’m selfish, I’m weak

And suddenly I hate the way you speak

The way you eat me out

I draw my curtain, yeah it’s harder to lie in the light

I see you looking at me, waiting for me

Well I know I shouldn’t be with you

But I can’t be bothered to be sad

I’m so lonely next to your body knowing

That you don’t know I feel this bad

Funny how time changes your mind

And you were once the best thing I ever had

Then you roll over and kiss my shoulder

Maybe I love you, maybe I’m just mad

Well I hate myself

I used to be fun and cool, now I don’t fancy myself

Pickin’ up old fights, tryna make you hate me

Cause I can’t be straight when you ask if I’m alright

Well it’s my problem, yeah i’m selfish, i’m weak

And suddenly I see I’m in too deep

Gonna hurt to leave

And I don’t wanna solve it

Even though you repulse me

Every time you love me and you look at me

Waiting for me